I am very upset right now. Upset, sad, angry and just generally pissed off would be what I am feeling at this exact moment.

Pregnancy is a very hard thing for a lot of people and to be honest my body has never responded very well to pregnancy, but I’ve always kept my babies, planned for babies and had my babies…

The past 3 days have been horrible. If you are following me on Twitter you’ll know pretty much whats been going on. I’ve pretty much been in early stages of labor since Wednesday night. I’m now dialted 2cm and have been having contractions between 4mins-5mins apart…I also have horrible heartburn, back pain and pressure in my vaginal area. I keep getting the urges to push and that isn’t good because I find myself pushing without being aware I’m doing it.

I went into the hospital Wednesday night… well, Thursday at 2am if I should get technical. They put me on the monitor for 10 minutes, came in checked my cervix. Instead of being 1cm like I was last time I’m 2cm. She said she didn’t know how long and thick I was last time and that was it - Asked where I live, if I could get back if need be and told me to go labor at home.

All fine and dandy but when this is going on for days, I have 3 other children at home not something I can easily do.

My big rant is with my OB… I have an appointment with him today at 1:15 and I’m just generally annoyed. I had this same thing happen with Ava when I was due to have her. I was in and out of the hospital every other day for almost 2 weeks before they decided to “sweep” my membranes which then put me right into labor that night… I can’t go through this again. I can’t keep spending $40 for trips to and from the hospital in taxi’s .. They know my history, they know what I’ve been through and the fact at 33 weeks baby was trying to come out.. I just am frustrated that I get treated so horribly at my appointments. My last appointment 2 weeks ago I didn’t even see my OB I saw his student. She weighed me, took my urine, took my blood pressure…. asked aout my hospital stay when they stopped labor said see you in 2 weeks and that was it.

I was treated very rudely and unfairly at this hospital with my last 2 children. I’ll be damned if I will again. They don’t even listen to me when I TELL them the estimated date they have written down for my LAST PERIOD is wrong - so they have me today at currently 36w,3d when in fact I am 36w,6d… which to them is a HUGE difference and could mean a lot when it comes to what they can do for me and what they cant.

When I go in today I intend on letting my DOCTOR know what has been going on, reminding him of my last baby and pregnancy and seeing if we can talk about having my membranes stripped again to help me along. I cannot lay in bed for another 3 days.. i cannot be dizzy, and see things blurry when I stand up, I can’t throw up after every meal I eat… 37 weeks is perfect for a baby to be born it is considered full term.

YES, 40 weeks and my due date is when I would LOVE baby to make his debut but in reality that won’t be happening, instead I’ll suffer until they get annoyed with me enough to induce me which I DO NOT want… which my children DO NOT NEED and just by my history alone should make them think twice and actually spend 5 minutes with me discussing with me what should/shouldnt happen… At least give me suggestions to ease the contraction pain, the throwing up and the dizziness or look at my files and figure something else out.

I dunno.. I’m very upset. And in a lot of pain. I’ve got a VERY low pain tolerance and for me to even bring up the words “Sweeping of the membranes” shows how much agony I am in. I’ve gone into labor on my own once, I’ve been induced once and I’ve had help with a membranes sweep to help progress labor I was having on my own and I’d much rather do it naturally on my own in my own time…. but with my history, how slow and painful things are and with 3 kids at home its not realistic.

We’ll see what happens this afternoon at my appointment. Probably nothing, but I won’t be leaving without saying whats on my mind and how I’m feeling…. Hospitals and Doctors shouldn’t treat every one the same - shouldn’t spend 2 minutes with their patients and be done… Everyone is different, every pregnancy is DIFFERENT. They should be treated as such…..

I didn’t even realize that I haven’t updated in so long until I saw the belly cam pic and realized its 2 weeks old! Oops. I’ll update it later today - promise!

Everything is good. Baby is fine and still kicking inside my tummy. However yesterday morning was spent at the hospital - just for a totally different reason. I have a nasty tooth infection. Over a year ago a filling fell out and my tooth broke into two. I was never bothered by it so I didn’t bother to get to a dentist…. Well bad mistake! Thursday night around 10pm my tooth started to ache really bad. I couldn’t sleep all night I was in tears and just in sheer pain. Friday morning we called the dentist, they were booked so they gave us a number to call for Emergency dental care - we called but they took FOREVER to call us back so my family doctor said to go down to the hospital. So I did.

Of course, there is an infection. No absess or anything to drain just your normal dental infection. They gave me a prescription for Penicillin and Tylenol 3’s and I am to go see a dentist soon. I started taking the medication yesterday at noon and I’m already feeling a bit of relief. Yesterday though I couldn’t eat I had to just eat popsicles and at about 8pm my hubby made me some chicken noodle soup that I had to eat very carefully. The odd time I’ll chomp down on my left side where my infected tooth is and OMG…. It feels like I’m going to die! It’s a little better today - still painful if I happen to bite down on that side/tooth but nothing like yesterday or Thursday… thankfully. I can’t wait to eat again real good food.. I miss food so much! :) lol

Other than that things are going well. Baby has made it inside Mommy until my goal of 36 weeks! :) Which makes me EXTREMELY happy.. now he can come at any time and labor wouldn’t be stopped, and it wouldn’t be an issue. I don’t think it will be too much longer. I find if I walk ANYWHERE it brings on horrible cramps and irregular contractions. I also can just be relaxing at night on the couch or in bed and I get intense semi-painful contractions so hes letting me know its almost time! We are ready for him and waiting! :) June is right around the corner so I couldn’t be more excited!

I’ve been slacking with the internet lately, so I’ll be catching up on everyone’s blogs on Monday. My hubby has been off work for a week so I’ve been getting rest, relaxing and just hanging out with him and the kids as well as getting some shopping and things we need done before baby arrives done… So things will be back to normal come Monday and I can’t wait to read/see what has been up with everyone! I miss the blogosphere!

I have no doubt in my mind that I will be having this baby early. How early? I don’t know but I do know I won’t make it to my due date. Well, I don’t know but its a feeling and the fact I’ve been having contractions randomly and regularly that are very intense and very painful paint a pretty clear picture for me.

Yesterday I was having cramps all day again. I laid down for most of the day then took the girls for a walk up to Jord’s school so they could play while we waited for school to let out. I felt awesome on the walk there the breeze was perfect, the weather was beautiful.. on the way back I started to get a bit hot but still it was a great walk. I continued to have cramps but nothing too serious until about last night around 7pm. My contractions started to come every 9 minutes or so at first they weren’t so bad I could talk through them and everything was fine. But by 9pm I couldn’t speak, I had to move positions and even started getting annoyed when my hubby would ask “are you having one?” and “are you ok?” poor guy I snapped at him a few times!

My contractions were between 5-3 minutes each… which when I called L&D they told me to wait it out and if my contractions were consistant at 3 minutes apart to come in…. They were at times but at times would jump back to 5 minutes.

By 11 or so I was on all 4’s on my bed and getting my hubby to rub my lower back very hard… That did nothing but make me feel like I was going to throw up. I went and had a warm bath thinking it would ease some of the pain and pressure in my lower back. It didn’t. I started to get a headache from the intensity of the contractions so I took my migraine medication and I kept trying to get comfortable. I FINALLY at one point passed out and didn’t wake up until 730am this morning. Of course I woke up with a migraine from hell, and of course litterally 1 minute after opening my eyes my contractions started again.

Today they’ve been very random. Very intense but random. I have my doctors appointment Friday afternoon… but if need be I’ll go down to the hospital. I plan on doing very little today. My house is spotless, the kids are being kept inside or we’ll go in the backyard so I don’t have to chase them all over (thank heaves for a fenced in backyard!) I’m feeling pretty good minus the random contractions, mild back pain and cramping….

If you haven’t already filled out to be apart of my Baby Game Pool I suggest you do.. It’ll be interesting to see who gets the closest! I think I want to change my vote :/

I decided today that I hadn’t written out any of my Birth stories so I was going to do it… I did, very quickly but accurately. You can find them by clicking here. I had written every one out at the time of each kids birth on message boards but they’ve all closed since so I have no copies. So I wrote them out on here!

I’m still waiting for the diaper bag to arrive that I bought off eBay. I bought it over 7 days ago. The lady who I bought it from said she was shipping it on Saturday, May 2nd so it should take 6-10 days to get here.. Still waiting… I’m so impatient.

I got a knock on the door the other day. From UPS…I’m thinking YESSS its my diaper bag. WRONG. It was a re-useable baby bag with a huge can of Heinz formula. While I’ll be breastfeeding and not using formula.. I’ll keep it anyways. I love getting free stuff in the mail. Especially when it comes from UPS in a big box!

Not much really else to report today. I’m taking the kids back out into the backyard in a few minutes. Right now they are all eating their afternoon snack so I figured I’d jump on and say hello. I’ve been slacking again in the commenting department but I’ve been really busy trying to take it easy, and keeping the kids busy so I’ll be doing that in the next few days. I feel like I haven’t read anyones blogs in so long I have no idea what anyone is up to! Slacker me…

I changed the theme. The other one was too boring for me. This one is very plain and boring too but I like it.

Not much to report. I’m feeling good. I’ve been having some mild cramps here and there but its to be expected. My back is also really starting to be sore. Sporting a big belly, all the needles I got in my back and everything else though I don’t think its a big deal. I’ve got a lot of energy even though I’m very exhausted.

The girls just woke up from their nap I had a good little rest while they had theirs. Jordan is a few doors down at a friend of ours playing with his son who is here for the weekend. Jordan is going with them to his Grandma’s birthday BBQ tonight - so thats great for him. Gets him out of the house with someone who is very good for him.. he is super sweet and a very good kid. Which we lack around our neighborhood. I love when he comes to visit his dad - as does Jordan they get along so well and I don’t worry about him when hes with this little friend as they are both really good kids.. It’s the other rotten kids in the neighborhood I’ve had to start banning Jordan from being around, and be very strict about.

Anyways, It’s thunder storming and has been for a little bit now. I’m going to go find something for the girls and I to bake while we listen to the loud booms of thunder. Hope everyone has a great Saturday! :)

Tuesday was my hubby’s day off.

It started like any other day I put away laundry while hubby had the kids in the playroom.. as the day went on I had some mild cramps in my lower abdoman. I didn’t think anything of it I just figured it was gas or I was doing a little too much. So I didn’t do anything else for the day I just sat outside had BBQ and then eventually laid on the couch.

These cramps were an all day thing. Coming and going but I did have really lower cramps that didn’t leave. I had a bubble bath at 730pm and by 8pm I was in bed watching a movie with my hubby. 830pm contractions started. At first they were 8 minutes apart and a bit painful.. but by the time they hit 3 minutes apart not only were they VERY painful but they were right in my back also. By 1145pm they were 2 minutes apart and I knew this wasn’t braxton hicks (braxton hicks dont hurt and usually dont come like these were!) and it wasn’t going to stop anytime soon. We called hubbys mom and she came to stay with the kids while my hubby and I left for the hospital.

At the hospital They put me on monitors my contractions were indeed 2 minutes apart and coming VERY strong. They decided to admit me because I was indeed in preterm labor and they wanted to start giving me steroids to mature baby’s lungs in case he did decide to come early. By 3am they put a patch on my arm to stop contractions. By 4am they put patch #2 on because #1 wasn’t doing anything. My hubby had to leave at 5am to go home and get some sleep so his mom to go get ready for work. I tossed and turned from about 530am-7am having nurses come in and out every 15 minutes…. But by 7am my contractions had stopped.

They checked my cervix when I first got to the hospital. It was fine, long and thick. Around 3am they checked again and I was 1cm and the doctor could feel the top of baby’s head and hair! Thank goodness the patches stopped labor because otherwise I would have had a baby in the NICU right now.

They wanted to keep me to make sure contactions had stopped and not just were stopping for the patches.. Yesterday around 7pm my 2nd patch fell off so they just watched to see what happened. These patches are so powerful all yesterday all I did was lay in the hospital bed throwing up and with a migraine. Migraine that NOTHING took away - they even tried Morphine… NOTHING. It was awful. Mother in law came to my house yesterday after work so hubby to come back up for an hour and hang out with me. I had a really good night they monitored the baby last night and I had a few braxton hicks contractions that didn’t hurt and indeed did show up on the monitor but if they don’t hurt - its totally fine. I had a TON of bleeding though - all dark brown blood which they think is from the exams and could also be mixed with my mucous plug since during the exams they saw a ton of mucous and its really stringy and thick (sorry TMI!) . . . as long as its not bright red, and its not all is good! :)

I had to get the needle of the steroids every 12 hours while I was there to help make his lungs stronger but I also had a strip test done that concluded I wouldn’t be going into labor within the next week so that was very reassuring to the doctors. So this morning at 11am I was released… If I have any cramps, bleeding or contractions I have to go right back in - so I’m watching closely and takign it easy. My mother in law is coming over after work to make dinner and hang out with me and the kids and help get them to bed!

Now I am home.. Missing my kids terribly the whole time I was gone - I cried a lot over missing them and not being able to be with them. Of course I talked to them on the phone but its not the same! Jordan is at school I’m dying to see him at 330! And the girls are napping … can’t wait for them to get up!

Anyways, thats the happenings from the last few days. I’m so glad to be home, with baby still holding on in my tummy! As long as he stays in there 2-3 more weeks that would be amazing! May 30th would be ideal but if hes gonna come hes gonna come, I just dont want him here too soon! STAY BABY STAY! :)

I’ve posted quite a few new photos over at my flickr. If you aren’t already listed as one of my contacts send me the request and I’ll add you so you can see the photos too.. they are contact/friends only.

We found out the other day while at the mall shopping for Jordan’s friends Birthday present that Thomas the train is coming back to our City. This time in the mall? So we’re planning on taking the kids. I’m hoping I have a doctors appointment at some point on one of the two days it’s scheduled so we can make one of the shows. Dora the explorer is also on tour but of course - not coming to our City. The girls would have freaked out over that one, or Barney.

Today was another beautiful day. I had the kids in the backyard pretty much all day. They played in the sandbox I’d say 98% of the time. The rest of the time they were at the table eating snacks! It’s really funny how much fun kids can have just in sand. Of course afterwards they all had to be given baths and get the sand scrubbed out of their hair.. Oh how much fun sand must be.

Tomorrow is supposed to rain, so I’d like to look around online for boutique hotels, and other things around the city my Mom is buried in. I’d really like to make a trip up there before it turns winter again. I just need to keep blogging, and making money online to earn some cash to go. I won’t take it out of the family money. So we’ll see hopefully before winter rolls around or perhaps next Spring I can get out there. Theres ways you can also donate to help with this on my site, you’ll just have to look and see.

Well, I need to finish up some laundry and help the kiddos clean up the playroom. I tell you having my basement back to a playroom is the most wonderful thing.. So easy and I can get so much laundry and other stuff done while the kids can play right there with me without me having to worry about a mess.. it’s wonderful. Hope everyone has a great night!

Ok… where do I start??

EASYHOME = SLEAZYHOME
I’m beyond livid regarding my laptop. We took it back yesterday and we had a full month’s payment that we SHOULD have gotten back. But of course instead they would ONLY give us “Store credit”. OK. I don’t want store credit. I will NEVER lease anything from that place again. Everything we’ve ever leased has been broken, or has broken shortly after getting it. The prices are so outrageous. Of course I knew that before leasing the laptop about the prices but after the third time of being open the laptop snapped that should have been a clue. I’m so beyond pissed. So now we have a $100 credit (from the 20th-2nd it cost $60 go figure!) that we will never use, and I’m really pissed about this. No where in the contract or any papers we’ve gotten does it say no refunds only store credit. Never again will I lease or use Easyhome in any way shape or form, and I will tell EVERYONE I know to steer clear of it. Not only do they double charge you for leasing products but apparently they steal your money too. Discusting.

PREGNANCY
Yesterday marked 33 weeks in my pregnancy. I’m very excited about this. I’m very anxious, and excited. I’m not wanting him to come before hes ready but we’re so ready for him! We can’t wait to meet him and the kids couldn’t be any more excited. Also, last night was the first night in 3 nights I got any sleep. I had to take tylenol and some cold medicine (safe kind) though because I had a migraine so bad from my sinus’ that I almost had to go to the hospital for an IV for the migraine. Thankfully it didn’t get that far I was able to fall asleep and although I did wake up a lot to pee, or roll over to reposition and get comfortable again I actually got SOME sleep and that is all I wanted and really needed. I was able to enjoy the day today without being so tired and it was great!

TODAY
Today Jordan went to his best friend’s birthday party. At Chuck E Cheese. He had a blast…. While he was off at the party hubby, the girls and I went to get a few groceries. We came home put the groceries away, Ava had a nap and then we all headed out back for a late BBQ lunch. We had yummy BBQ hamburgers! So good. Jordan came home and I had the kids outside for the rest of the day until dinner. We all ate some yummy chicken and went out back to play in the sandbox. The girls just had their bath and are now watching some Barney and relaxing before snack, story and bedtime! Jordan is riding his bike around the driveway and palying with some sidewalk chalk…So far its been a great day… it was so beautiful outside, I do love this weather although I tend to overheat really quickly.

ALL IN ALL
This post was rambles but thats what this site is about! :) I hope everyone is enjoying the weekend, and this weather if you have it! It’s supposed to rain a lot this coming week which is not great news for my family of little ones who love to be outdoors. We’ll just have to hope for lots of incorrect weather reports. Anyway - In need of some diet pills? Trying to lose some weight? Already lost some weight? Share some secrets with me so I can get on track after baby is born.. It’s coming so soon!